Just like a scene from a romantic movie I noticed him from across the room, as he seemingly moved in slow motion making his way thru the crowd and toward the area of the club where I was standing. His eyes were mesmerizing. He was strikingly beautiful with classic “boy next door” looks. He could hands down give any male runway model a run for their money. I wanted him, and I wanted him to want me. I knew I wouldn’t forgive myself if I left the club without accomplishing that.

As fate would have it his walk stopped right next to me and he positioned himself side by side with me to watch the strip show everyone was there to see. I didn’t need another sign, that was enough. I taped his shoulder, reached out my hand to shake his, leaned over into his ear and said “Hi I’m Toy. I had to introduce myself because you look JUST like my next boyfriend.”…He instantly smiled one of the biggest, warmest smiles I had seen in a while. He laughed and replied “Is that so?”……….I was in!

We conversed for the next 30min as if there was no one else in the club but us. He was shy and he blushed a lot as I showered him with every slick line I had learned over my years as a male hunter. It was a perfect meet and he was perfect boyfriend material. I actually had the innate feeling that I already knew him and that comfort level made everything that much easier. It was only when one of the strippers approached us to give him a hug that a distinct vision popped in my head….I did already know him! The vision was a porn scene I had jacked off to from one of my favorite porn sites featuring exclusively raw porn! My heart dropped.

It was all coming back to me now. Every cum swaping, threesome, double penetration scene I had seen him in was crystal clear in my head. This seemingly shy, gorgeous 21yr old specimen not only did porn but he did raw porn. As open minded as I would like to think I am I found myself no longer sure how I wanted to proceed. I had already invited him out on a date and he had accepted but….but I just wasn’t sure.

Yeah he was a hot guy but what would my friends say? And as cut throat as gays are with their comments and “reads” could I handle a retort about my adult industry boyfriend? Could I actually walk around holding his hand with my head held high? Could I seriously date him after seeing him get fucked on the internet? Knowing any and everybody else could see him in a personal manner at at any time. Could I cozy up to him and call him mine after seeing other guys nut in his mouth? My head was flooded with questions marks.

I ask myself: Would you date a porn star? The perception of people who work in the sex industry is that they’re sluts and whores. Is that an accurate assessment? I’m not really sure. What I do know is that if we decided to become intimate I’d always compare myself and what we do to what I’ve already seen of him on my computer. And that’s a lot of pressure. Will I be able to satisfy him? With all that he’s done will I even be enough? Will he expect me to perform like those guys? As much as I enjoy porn do I really wanna HAVE to fuck like a porn star in order to date one?

I ask myself: Would I date a porn star? And I still don’t have an answer. Would you?